Maura Goes to Brazil
I had every intention of writing about Halloween, All Saint’s Day and All Soul’s day last week but I found that it exposed an unsettled grief in a part of me that I wasn’t ready to face at the time. I had just spent a week in California, of which many times I was reminded of James and therefore my heart was already in a tender place.
It is quite interesting how much the heart can contain. The fact that I can be content, satisfied and love those around me but at the same time, hold the weight of grief and loss in that same place is beyond my understanding.
Today is for Maura. I’ve been thinking about her. I’ve been thinking about them all. James. Tinu. Veola. and many others but today is for Maura.
Maura Cassiana de Souza
June 23 1986 to May 19 2009
I just watched Lydia’s latest video. Friends and family have been spreading Maura’s ashes all over the world and thankfully they’ve been sharing the videos with the rest of us. Every time I watch, I am in awe. This sacred ritual is beautiful and gut wrenching. But as mentioned before, knowing that Maura’s ashes are all over the entire world reminds me that every place is sacred ground. Her ashes are there. Therefore I’ll need you to do away with foolishness and be the holy beings I know we all are.
I could be consumed by grief today. If I even give it half a thought, I could let that glooming feeling take over. Addressing it and dealing with it is important but I know me. I have to go beyond it. I have to remember Maura’s laughter and her smile.
(Lydia, thank you for sharing this. This made my day harder but more special.)
Read Happy Birthday Maura to view other videos where her holy ashes were spread!
Most recently, Maura also went to Korea.
Learn More About Maura
Maura’s Mom writes beautiful things. – Maura. Life After.
Facebook Group – Maura Cassiana de Souza Admirers
Facebook Group – Live Teal
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