Originally written earlier this month some time.
Today is International Women’s Day. A global day celebrating the economic, political and social achievements of women past, present and future. In some places like China, Russia, Vietnam and Bulgaria, International Women’s Day is a national holiday.
I’ve been on a mission to create an experience, workshop, short film, ecourse and possibly even a book regarding sexuality, spirituality, sensuality as it relates to women, movement, rituals, art, history and nature tying in a bit of psychology, biology, metaphysics, sociology and politics. Well that’s where I’m starting but in essence I’ve opened my own Pandora’s box in order to research and develop this inkling that’s been on my mind. It doesn’t exist anywhere and I want it so I’m making it for myself.
In doing this, I’ve happened upon many many resources. Currently, I find myself reading in no particular order and definitely not limited to….
1. Full Exposure: Opening Up to Sexual Creativity and Erotic Expression by Susie Bright
2. Who Cooked the Last Supper? : The Women’s History Of the World by Rosalind Miles
3. Scandalous Women: The Lives and loves of History’s Most Notorious Women by Elizabeth Kerri Mahon
4. The Female Brain by Louann Brizendine
5. Sex Matters for Women By Foley, Kope, Sugrue
In doing my research, I’ve discovered the stories of so many women. Beautiful, scandalous and tragic stories of women from the past that move me, inspire me, enrage me and enlighten me. Our history is massive. It’s full bodied. We exist and it means something important. I don’t label myself a feminist but I must say I find myself enraged with the social and political structure of the world as it stands now and because of what has happened in the past. The very nature of many of the world’s top religions just makes me sigh a big “What The FUCK!” because of their systematic approach, that’s still active today in oppressing, repressing, overpowering and silencing women.
I care about humanity as a whole. I prefer to focus on all people but in these last six months, something changed. Maybe it was after being inspired by Sheila Kelley . It started with her and those damn hip circles but then I went to The Pole Truth and I was fucking enraged and passionately empowered to learn about women.
Trust me, I love men. I also don’t think men and women are that different. One of the main differences however, is our history. The history of men is different than the history of women. There is a vast difference and it has shaped almost EVERYTHING including the current state of the world.
My point is not to be political. I’m not going to give you tips on celebrating women. Maybe later I’ll share some of the names and stories I’ve encountered within the pages of these books. I’ll definitely share what I’m creating as well. That’s not the point of this. Perhaps its just a preface.
Being that I am a woman and being fully inspired by Full Exposure, mentioned above, I want to share something else. In Full Exposure, Susie Bright talks about the need for us all to “come out.” I’m paraphrasing, and I pray she forgives me but I don’t have the book in front of me right now. She speaks on how we’ve reserved the phrase “coming out” for those who are LGBTQ when really, in essence, EVERY person needs to come out. Sexuality is more than just the gender you have a preference for and how you gender label yourself. How many of us have truly come out in full honesty about our sexual philosophy. Who has ever given their true manifesto?
As open as I am, I don’t even believe I’ve ever “come out” either. Here is some of my story.
Musings on My Erotic Manifesto
1. I am a woman but my gender has little to do with how I define myself.
2. I believe in a polymorous lifestyle if that is what you choose. I believe in open relationships and open communication.
3. I seek passion and sensual experiences in almost every area of my life.
4. I can’t label my sexuality or my attractions. I’d never want to limit my expressions to say I were heterosexual, bisexual, lesbian or whatever. And I personally don’t care when people answer that question for me or ask “What am I?” What am I? I am a being. I am spirit. I am energy manifesting in many forms without limits. I am however I choose. I am light. I am power. I am sexual. I am everything.
5. I am a kinky, fetish freak. I like to play. I like bondage and spikes and riding crops and whips and patterned tights, short skirts, bending over, being spanked, biting, hair pulling, overt flirtatious, sex in public and loud sounds….to name a few. (This isn’t the place to scare you with the full scope of my fantasies. But ask me and I’ll tell you of some of my adventures.)
6. I believe sexuality should be discussed any and everywhere in the appropriate context of its audience.
7. I am a sex positive person. I am not a porn star, a slutface whore or the answer to your black, bitch slave fantasy. Please note the difference.
8. It is true, I was sexually abused as a child. Its a story I share openly. Have you seen my youtube videos or the dozens of posts? I encourage you to check them out. It has shaped my life but it is not a hindrance to my life. It is not the answer to why I do or don’t do. It is a part of the equation but not the explanation for it.
9. I give no excuse nor have any guilt for my pleasures, my delights, my interest, my preferences and that which I deny. I am me. Take it or leave it.
10. I believe in full expression so long as it doesn’t involve forcing someone, taking advantage of someone or abusing and/or assaulting someone in any manner whether physical, emotional, sexual or however.
11. I want the fucking guilt trips associated with “women” and “sexuality” to rot in hell. I’m so sick of it. I will not accept it or allow it or let you get away with it.
12. I understand that you are different than me. I don’t need you to agree with my lifestyle choices or my every word to dialogue and communicate with me.
13. I love sex.
Liberate yourself. Empower yourself. Share your self with the world. And even if you are labeled as one of the more scandalous, notorious ones, understand the full pleasure in that. Do you have a coming out story? What’s your erotic manifesto? Or did I just freak you the fuck out?
P.S. Pretty soon, I’ll share my entire reading list with you. It is so amazing!
P.P.S. I promise this won’t become a sexuality blog. I think I gave you all enough when I added my Pole Blog to this website.
SOME OF MY WRITINGS