On February 21st, 2012 we entered into the Pisces New Moon. Along with a stong emotional experience of loss and grief, thus my focus on writing of James Franklin Pyles, I also experienced a further awakening in another area of my life.

I find that I am “in between.” I’m in between homes right now. I’m almost done releasing the keys to my old apartment and still unpacking boxes in my new one. I’m “in between” my relationships and love. I’m almost with him for the rest of my life but still dating others because with distance and even close proximity, we understand full freedom. I’m “in between” my movement. I’ve reached a new level of dance. My strength is there. My knowledge is there but there is still growth. I still need to point my toes admist the hip circles. I am “in between” my friends. The nature of many of my friendships are changing, because we change our choices and our priorities and the way we treat each other. I’m “in between” a major site redesign. The firm has been hired. The initial proposal has been given. My desires have been expressed. But still, even before we begin…there’s that “in between” where further articulations occur.

I’m “in between” so many things. I don’t find this place confusing. I don’t find it discouraging. Its the moment you begin to pull the anchor up or the moment as the anchor is released. Its the moment you untie the rope to begin to set sail.  I believe these moments are precious. You find the limits of your boundaries. You discover new rules. You find a new path. You uncover new epiphanies.

I have learned that I can push myself to places I did not know existed. I’ve learned my comfort level has a higher tolerance that even I thought was possible. I’ve learned that the sensations of pleasure and pain both excite me. I’ve learned there’s always room for me to love more. I’ve learned that with more space and less stuff, I breathe, sleep, eat and live better. I’ve learned and I’m still discovering. That is what I take in. That is the joy of this moment.

SLY MOON MUSING

January New Moon 2012  -Sprout, Release, Express

Full Snow Moon 2012 ~ Loving and Letting Go

February New Moon 2011 – Rooted and Moving

Full Wolf Moon 2011 ~ Howling Through Ink

Full Sturgeon Moon 2011 ~ Dreaming With Eyes Open

August New Moon 2011 ~ Living Wide Open

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Three things cannot be long hidded: the sun, the moon, and the truth ~ Buddha

The night walked down the sky with the moon in her hand ~ Frederic Lawrence Knowle

On February 7th, 2012 at 4:53 PM EST, we will enter into the February Full Moon, most commonly known as the Full Snow Moon. This is a Leo Full Moon which seems apropos considering that Leo sits directly across the table from Aquarius. Today, Saturn has also gone into retrograde.

I will say this, in the last few months my life has been on fire. I’ve been on a collision course with my destiny at lightning speed with so much passion, that at times, even I need to say, “Whoa, slow down and be present during all this!” Weeks ago during the Aquarius New Moon in January of 2012, I wrote….

Articulate your passions and speak them out loud. Once your dreaming is done, AWAKE my friends. AWAKE and strategically plan your dominating path. That is where I am at right now. My goal is to raze old paradigms, set my soul on fire and CREATE.

I spoke about the metaphorical symbolism of awakening from your dreams into emerging fires and that is what I have been encountering. In recent weeks, I’ve performed in public for a pole dancing showcase, had blog posts featured on Owning Pink and Vertical Art and Fitness, filmed a pole dancing short film, traveled to Washington DC and have begun work on many other projects… such as a site redesign, stage managing a pole show, . embracing the love of my life and so the list goes. It seems only fitting that on this Full Snow Moon the results of dreams and goals are emerging in full blossom.

But then, I remember last year during the Full Snow Moon, how my life was going at a rapid pace. I was in constant movement, as I am now, and I realized, I needed rest. In Full Snow Moon 2011 ~ Let This Weary Body Rest, I spoke specifically about that as I prepared for a relaxing weekend in Miami. Perhaps, I knew the need for reflection would occur this time around again.  Therefore, I’m grateful for the restful weekend I just experienced in Washington D.C. It was an amazing break from the constant motion of New York and gave me time to reassess and re-energize. I had time to actually write in my journal, light candles…at the Holocaust Museum in remembrance, and even meditate on a train!

To my initial thought though, the occurrences of this Full Snow Moon do not surprise me. What I did not take into account was Saturn going into retrograde. It is said that when Saturn goes into retrograde we need to be careful about our commitments, projects and responsibilities. We need to watch our tendency to say YES and apparently, we shouldn’t even take on any new commitments, or make huge financial decisions. You can take these thoughts at face value, slight interest or let it rule your life but I find it very timely. Just yesterday, I had to make a firm position to not move forward with a commitment I had started. I had a few whisperings of my intuition that I ignored <– (a self issue I need to work on ASAP) but when the time came to make a final decision and wavering occurred, I knew I needed to step away, say NO and be at complete peace with that decision. It’s a lesson learned.

What also excites me is the notion of the Leo being in the full moon as it relates to love, relationships, passion and desire. As has been the case for a long while now, I am completely, wholeheartedly in love. Due to life’s shifts, perhaps the position of the moon, our own actions and how the world works, our lives have intersected again and I am ever grateful. This Leo Full Moon just further reiterates our place in the galaxy and our destiny together. I am excited for our love and how awesome its going to make the world, just saying.

LESSONS LEARNED

Listen to your intuition. (Your soul will steer you where you should be.)

After dreaming, Wake UP. (It’s the only way your passionate interest will become your reality.)

Be still and breathe. (Progress, Motion and Activities are great but there must be balance. Give yourself rest and reflection.)

Let Go. (Too often we hold on to notions, ideas, projects and relationships that serve no purpose but to add noise or take away energy. Let go if you need to, it will be ok.)

Love unabashedly, freely & wholeheartedly.

MOON MUSINGS OF NOTE

January New Moon ~ Sprout, Release, Express

Full Snow Moon – Let This Weary Body Rest

Lull of the Moon on My Spirit

Photo Credit: NASA

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On January 23rd 2012 at 2:39 EST, we entered into the Aquarius New Moon. Today is the Lunar New Year and it is a time of celebration, reflecting and excitement.

It is a day of sprouting, releasing and expressing.

Here are a few things to note that I’ve learned in my research today. The Aquarius new moon is on the brave fixed (military) star Altair in Aquila the Eagle. Mars goes into retrograde tomorrow!

 Words that are swirling around this new moon are BRAVE. VALIANT. DARING. UNYIELDING. FIERCE. POWER. ENERGY. CREATIVE ORGINIALITY. BEGINNINGS. FREEDOM. TRUTH. ENLIGHTENMENT. IMAGINATION. INNOVATION. COURAGE. CONVICTION. STRATEGY. DEVISING.

What I know is this. I have planted seeds for many adventures in my life and what is now needed is clarity, focus, strategic planning, violent decisions and a dominating will to create my own path.

As the new moon began, I was literally awoken from a slumber because of an emerging fire.

I KID YOU NOT. Around midnight, there was a loud banging on my door. When I opened it, there were 10 fireman, if not more going up and down the stairs of my apartment building. Something had caught fire. Yes, literally but also it was a metaphor to the cycle of this new moon in my life.

All was well. No one was injured and we all were able to keep our homes. What I take from this experience is the symbolism of being awaken from a dream to an emerging fire. 

Articulate your passions and speak them out loud. Once your dreaming is done, AWAKE my friends. AWAKE and strategically plan your dominating path. That is where I am at right now. My goal is to raze old paradigms, set my soul on fire and CREATE.

Some of my plans that I’m willing to reveal right now.

1. WANDERLUST -  I just booked a ticket to DC

2. WRITING/POLE – I’m putting the finishing touches on my first Vertical Art & Fitness magazine article. (Did I mention they are featured in Barnes and Noble?)

3. VIDEOGRAPHY/POLE – I’ve been commissioned to record, edit & help develop a pole dancing short film. (We’re working on our shooting schedule right now!)

4. PHOTOGRAPHY – I’ve been commissioned to shoot a friend. (I’m still growing my wings in photography. I’ll be doing her headshots, some fun artsy things and possibly a boudoir shot or two!)

5. THEATER/POLE – I’ve just agreed to stage manage a pole event in the summer.

6. VIDEOGRAPHY/POLE – I’ve been asked to work on the creative team and film with a group of amazing people for an upcoming pole production.

7. EVENTS – I’m in the midst of planning the annual C.R.E.A.T.E trip. Our guest list has been finalized. Now on to location, dates & fun activities!

7. PERSONAL DEVELOPMENT – I’ve signed up for a 10 day SILENT retreat focusing on meditation, yoga and nature. (I know for sure I’m probably gonna have a breakdown BUT there will be “beauty” in the breakdown.)

8. ART/POLE – I have plans to feature Aerial Amy and TS Valenzuela on “The North Pole”. Two dynamic, amazing women making waves in the pole industry and I can’t wait to bombard them with a million questions!

9. WRITING/EMPOWERMENT – I’m working on my second post for Owning Pink, of which I’m now a regular contributing blogger. (Saying that amazes me. Lissa, Melanie and the rest of the time are POWERHOUSES and I get to play and make a difference with them)

10. PERSONAL DEVELOPMENT – I’m in the process of finding a life coach or therapist. Its simply that time again. There’s a box in my brain called Pandora and the bitch is banging to be opened!

11. PHOTOGRAPHY/BUSINESS – I’m hiring Jantira K to be my photographer for a couple of projects coming up for my personal business and planning this shoot, which is more elaborate that originally thought is just so freaking fun!

12. ART/BUSINESS – I’m learning to doodle. There is major significance in this. Of which, I may share at another time.

You may ask but hey, what about that other project you mentioned before, or your internship or your this and your that. And how are you gonna do all those things? Aren’t you overstretched? Why are your interest all across the board? Don’t you need some damn, focus!?

A. The list above isn’t my lift list or my” accomplish because now its 2012 and this is the year of manifesting and getting shit done” list. They are things that are just added to my ongoing list of “Sheena’s Life Rocks and She Gets to Play and Do Things She Loves Everyday.”

B. Not all of these things are my focus RIGHT NOW. Right now, I’m finishing my article for Vertical Art & Fitness. Other projects are months away, some are weeks away, some are tomorrow.

C. This is precisely what I mean about strategic planning. I write for a number of different websites and blogs, actually. Some I’ve never announced and others you may know about. But what I now realize since I’m branching out in writing, is that I need an editorial schedule for myself.

D. Along with creating a new writing schedule for myself, I now need to redo my whole process of how I get shit down. I haven’t figured out all the kinks yet. One day, I’ll have to share with you my method for the last two years. Once in which I’m proud of and have loved it. But it just doesn’t serve me any longer. So one of my main focuses this month is learning a new way to plan, strategize and get all my fun shit done.

LESSONS

So what am I releasing? I’m releasing what isn’t serving me. I’m releasing the process I’ve used for the last two years that I think is innovative, creative and so fun in regarding to my schedule and projects but that which no longer works with my new lifestyle.

I’m releasing fear. I haven’t written about it yet but this past weekend I performed in a pole dancing showcase and for weeks I’ve been carrying fear and many other negative emotions as it relates to this even though my participating was my choice and I love this art form. Still, I’ve been carrying a weight of worry. Then I learned some lessons, the show was amazing and I realized I didn’t need the fear.

I’m releasing the judgement of my intuition. I have spot on, amazing intuition but for many reasons, some of which I hashed out on twitter, I am hesitant to listen to it. I’m releasing that judgement and am going to listen to the whispers of my soul!

What am I taking in? I’m taking in LOVE. Self love. His love. Wholehearted, passion, unabashed love. Love for my passions. Love for pole. Love for joy, for popsicle and red velvet cake. Love for travel. Love from spirit, source and soul. I’m taking in LOVE. I’m willing to take in a little grace. A lot of gratitude. Some much needed stillness. And I’m taking in the opportunities I’ve created for myself! This is my life, it’s what I create it to be.

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